I took off from work on Friday for two reasons. 1) I really needed to not deal with my coworkers for an extra day. I love them but damn. (They ended up calling me anyway. Twice. More on that after the jump.) 2) I had a lunch date with my father.
Following the lunch I decided to find a local botanica as I had a sense of needing…something. I haven’t been to one in ages and their prices are generally much better than the local new age/pagan stores. Everything is about demographic. Stores will price what the market can bear.
After a harrowing couple of U-Turns because my GPS is kind of bad at its job, I spent another 15-20 minutes simply walking around the shop and feeling, admittedly, overwhelmed. I know my way around a pagan shop like a boss but this place was new to me so I did the best thing and asked for help.
30 minutes, 2 conversations, and about $75 later I walked out with two bags and a mission. Most of that $75 came from the bottle of cleansing wash specifically created by the proprietor of the shop.
3 days. 3 washings. 1 candle. Then you can proceed with your other work.
The last cleansing is today. Since the beginning of this process I’ve had:
* An old acquaintance reach out to me out nowhere. It was a good thing I missed the call. The guy is a magnet for dysfunction and drama and talking to him would have roped me back into conversations that mean nothing and do nothing for me in the long run.
*Odd dreams surrounding my move to the Netherlands or where I’m encountering scenarios or people who seem out of place in my dream world. I can remember these people and places vividly.
*Decreasing anxiety about the political atmosphere at work. Whereas before I might have been anxious about missing two phone calls on my day off, I simply sent a text stating that my laptop was at the office. I didn’t have access to work materials. They would need to figure out things for themselves.
In the words of my partner “The world will still turn even if you don’t do everything.”
Once the cleansing ritual is done, the road-opening work can begin. The fact that the assistant at the shop mentioned this and I didn’t even tell him road-opening was where I was headed magically gave me a hint that I was going in the right direction.
If you read Silence is Golden Part Deuces, than you know all of this is part of a series of goals I have that involve leaving the country, strengthening my coding chops with projects, and furthering my quest for prosperity and self-sufficiency. This meant leaving social media, focusing on my magic, focusing on my technical skills and avoiding social justice platforms, blogs, and conversations which is difficult to do when that’s what tends to clutter your feeds. The latter of which achieve ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TANGIBLE for me.
If you’re another black woman reading this blog, then you know most of us are socially conditioned to put the issues of others before ourselves or join in fights that provide us no benefit. Tangibility means there is an outcome that enhances your health, wealth, or happiness PERSONALLY AND IN THE NOW. Not down the road. Not after “the struggle”, or another panel discussion or “think piece”. Like with your magic, if you’re not getting results from what you’re doing then you aren’t doing much of anything.
The benefits of this cleansing have already shown themselves as have the benefits of the social media cut off. My fire is lit and now it just needs to be fed by action and discernment when it comes to what I’m exposing my life energy to and where I’m channeling said energy.
As another piece of sync for this last day of cleansing, today at 5:00pm EST Gina McCauley of What About Our Daughters will be hosting a free Webinar titled The First Rule of Beyonce Mode;
We’ll cover the rules of Beyonce’ Mode, a state of being where you get things done while everyone else is posting selfies and status updates. A fun-filled hour studying the strategic genius of Beyonce Knowles-Carter.
There’s still time to sign up for the webinar and, once again, it’s free.
Find what lights your fire and use it.
What I’m Reading:
Over at Fools that Men Adore, Heretic sits some truth surrounding how Writing Isn’t Everything in Magick. As a bibliophile, I can relate to wanting to cop the newest title but failing to do the work involved in testing the theory for myself. I’ve also witnessed the tendency to see publishing a book as the marker of how serious one is in their occult/religious practice.
Gordon’s released another post for his Archonology series that further shows why Tumblring, wringing hands, and writing think pieces isn’t going to help you in the long run.
A few weeks ago Sannion discussed life purpose at The House of Vines, specifically the concept of living with True Will.
And finally, Ribbon Farm’s post on Technopaganism and the Newer Age is an amazing essay on the effects technology has had on the New Age, Californian culture in relation to Burning Man and Silicon Valley, the concept of “Technopaganism”, and the shift from New Age to Newer Age. I probably didn’t do the piece justice with my synopsis but just take my word for it and give it a skim.